eh. my story isn’t so grand.
it was 8th grade…so like..what? 1997? Sailor moon was on tv. I recalled my cousin being into it at that time…owning cards and stickers (she has since gotten out of it long ago)
so…it was summer vacation and i wanted to watch some tv and it was on. so, i watched it. because it looked interesting. because it had girls as super heros. because my cousin (who is like a second bff to me) watched it.
and i just started watching it…and i guess i just found it interesting enough that i had to watch another episode to see what was going to happen.
Do i recall what episode started it all? I am afraid not. I just remember watching it over summer break…at the tender age of 12. i remember watching the next…and i was curious what would happen next…and it just snowballed from there.
i distinctly recall summer ending and me rushinh home RIGHT at 3 to watch it on cartoon network. I remember having this rule by my dad that i had to exercise (i guess he noticed the extra fat on my bones that wasn’t going away haha) and it was a perfect way to watch tv as well, since the treadmill was right infront of a large tv.
i would pseudo exercise…because i hated exercise. i never understood it’s importance back then and i didn’t care to. just straddle on the machine until i heard someone come down the basement stairs…in which case i would hop back on the fast moving machine and pray to the stars and gods and heavens that i didn’t careen off the machine and hurt myself.
there was a rule that homework came before play…so often, i would set up the VSH to record…or, being that physical fitness was equally important…i could go down to the basement and work out while watching sailor moon.
it just spawned from there i guess. me rushing home from school. me buying trading cards from the mall. me buying my first manga in high school (sailor moon vol. 1) and being hooked to manga (which resulted in a manga spending spree of $1,000 over 3 months which resulted in me getting in HUGE trouble for abusing my new ATM card at machines)
i remember being pissed that i couldn’t watch the lunar eclipse marathon because it was during thanksgiving and we were going to the neighboors house for dinner.
I remember going through some emotional turmoil as a teenager which was only exasperated by the fact i took ritalin and it’s side effect made me overly emotional crying wreck. I recall nights where i would cry myself to sleep over little things like my body image, or no boyfriends, or my stupid brother who always said mean things to me…and i remember…that the MOMENT it got bad…
i could just reach onto my bookshelf and grab my tuxedo mask plushie and cuddle it to feel better. he was ALWAYS my go-to guy when i was having a bad night…and even NOW….when i am scared and need comfort and my husband isn’t here… i can grab that same old plushie (that suffered some operation scars when his fluff leaked out) and i can hold it tight and feel a little better (like when the tornado sirens went off during bad weather and i was SCUUUURRRRR’DDDD I WUZZZ GOAN DIIIEEE)
i remember my brother making fun of me for watching cartoons (because thats what 11 year olds boys do when they aren’t taught to respect their elder sister.)
i remember when R season cut off midway through. i remember being SO confused when they would be fighting the Akayashi sisters on the bridge one episode…and then Usagi waking up late for school in the next. I remember being SO thrilled when it returned with the lost episodes or whatever shit it was called back then.
I remember when that was it….no S or SS.
a small tidbit about me. I think…THINK…i can predict the future or a would be future via my dreams. here is why i think that based on constant reoccurring dreams i have had:
- my car breaks not working or my car being out of control
- me going on cruises
- little mermaid dreams with new scenes and senarios that are not canon to the first movie
- sailor moon dreams that are not canon to season 1 and 2
- i kept having dreams where my mom was pregnant with another child
- i have MORE dreams about little mermaid
- i have MORE dreams about sailor moon
- even MORE sailor moon dreams
and here i why i think i have magical rei like powers (in order from above)
- Winter semester had JUST started. there was black ice on the road i didn’t know about. my car slides on it and i can’t work my breaks in time. i rear end the guy infront of me
- my mom surprised my sister and i with a cruise off the san diego coast
- turns out, little mermaid 2 comes out…and i am stoked to see melody!
- Sailor moon S and SS come out on cartoon network!!! i was SUPER excited PLUS! it was one of the FIRST times i got to have a TV in my room!
- Turns out…my mom mentions that she always wanted a 3rd child…but my dad didn’t….because he already had 2 daughters through a previous marriage…and then my brother and i with my mom.
- Turns out…this time…Ariels beginning is a small preview in some movie…NEW ARIEL MOVIE!
- turns out, THIS TIME…it was news of the kondansha american release WITH SAILOR V
- again…20th ANNIVERSARY NEW ANIME ANNOUNCED
now…each time i have the dreams…they keep coming back…and when said thing happens…said reoccurring dreams STOP. (sailor moon dreams started again before kondansha announced manga…stopped when manga news came out…dreams returned…only to stop once the anime was announced)
it is just TOO much of a coincidence for me NOT to think something is up…
so…BEFORE S and SS came out…i KEPT having sailor moon related dreams over and over and over….but sadly…back then…i didn’t know that my brain fucks with me and tells me future stuff….otherwise i would have CALLED IT BEFORE Y’ALL
anywho…i also remember sailormoon.com and sailormars.com and tuxedomask.com and all those other sites with chats and MIDI’s. I even met my first online BF at age 15 through sailor moon.com
sailor moon defined who i was for a period….back when i was a HUGE weeaboo (the annoying kind who thinks everything was kawaiiii desu and all my friends were onii-chans)
i went to my first cons with sailor moon cosplay. I got cheated $150…when i ordered a comission wig from someone back in 2004 and it never arrived (an usagi wig no less!). I had a serenity dress that was a size too big…and when i was running down the convention hall…I HAD A NIP SLIP BECAUSE I WAS YOUNG AND DIDN’T KNOW ABOUT STRAPLESS BRAS!
i cosplayed as Makoto..one unique being her black rose dress from SS (still have it…forget who commissioned it). I did Minako’s audition tutu outfit…i spent hoards of money on merchandise and rare things.
sailor moon still kinda defines me…but not as much…it is still THE biggest fandom in my life and i doubt that will ever change. it is something that grew up in my teens…it held me when i was down…it lifted me up when i felt weak. it taught me valuable lessons and provided me with much needed entertainment and distraction.
It is the reason i have the friends i have today. It is the reason for a lot of things in my life and not once do i ever regret it